>>396020Initially I'd be overwhelmed by the responsibility and frantically seek to educate myself before deciding. I'd come to appreciate the strange imposition that now demands I dedicate my life to it.
Every waking moment must be dedicated to the crushing task of preparing for that final decision. A decision that I'd never get to enjoy or suffer because… The universe has imposed upon me a task so much bigger than myself that every moment it's not attended is a moment squandered. Therefore I must live every moment in dedication to the task and preservation of myself lest I die before formulating an answer.
I'd wonder if it even matters for my timeline. How would I know it came into effect? Would I, after a life of study I'd be left wondering if it wasn't all a delusion?
Then, I'd be consumed by the possibility of inadvertently erasing myself from history or altering my development so badly that the person I am changes completely. Would I, the new me, then make a different decision further altering history for the next loop? Surely the only way to prevent recursion is that whatever decision is made, erases myself from the future.
Why would I be chosen for this? It makes no sense! Is my suffering the point!?
Ultimately, a few years in , on a clear night I'd forgo my confinement and find a place to watch the skies. I'd stare the universe in it's cold blazing eyes and choose my own two parents.
Fuck your task! Fuck your game! And fuck you rules!
I CHOOSE OBLIVION