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 No.121066

anyone else CONSTANTLY thinking about death?

i can't stop imagining getting my throat slashed out or my neck cracked, or getting stabbed between the ribs, or hanged, having my ears chopped off, eyes out… i could go on forever
i live a pretty normal life it's not even suicidal thoughts, just randomly keep doing it for the sake of it and putting myself in those scenarios, like how would it feel or if i'd survive or not to the point i've started working out my abdomen and neck muscles to have some better resistance

i swear it's becoming an obsession
been watching gore to desensitize myself but in some cases that just makes it worse
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 No.121073

No anon it sounds very disturbing if you keep thinking about suicide in such graphic terms if you are not already depressed/suicidal.
>been watching gore to desensitize myself
…
Anon if you are scared of dying in a graphic manner then start working out, learn basic first aid, and buy a gun and train with it so that you can feel some measure of safety. And ffs don't watch snuff or whatever you're doing because it's not helping.
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 No.121078

Are you Woodie Allen from Annie Hall? He read every book with
"death" in the title he could find, in that movie.
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 No.121079

Just commit suicide. If your such a massive faggot that you unfortunately fail you'll probably think to yourself "wow I'm a massive faggot" soon after the experience ends
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 No.121085

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>>121066
>been watching gore to desensitize myself
I've been doing this a lot lately, I watch through the rekt thread on /gif/ every day. It isn't doing me much good as I already have mild agoraphobia, GAD, and a tendency to be uncomfortable around the african immigrants.
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 No.121086

When I get lonely my thoughts start drifting there, not really how I'd die but just how would it feel to die in general. And what comes after, if anything.
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 No.121087

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In my depresive episodes, yes, I am thinking about it all the time. When I see a knife, I cant help but think what it would be like to sink it into my arm, how long it would take for me to fade out from bleeding. When I see a ledge, I cant help sometimes but to think how easy it would be to throw myself off it, what it would feel like to splat against the ground, how long it would take to fade out once I do so. I have a lot of mental problems
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 No.121091

>>121085
…why are you doing that then, you retard?
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 No.121093

>>121091
I feel emotionally numb at lot of the time and when I don't it's usually sadness I feel. Watching videos that disturb me is a good way of distracting my brain from sadness and other bad thoughts.
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 No.121095

>>121093
In the long term, that is a very unhealthy coping mechanism, my man.
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 No.121112

>>121095
yeah it probably is
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 No.121114

>>121112
So maybe try something else? Like watch something happy to distract from sadness instead.
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 No.121116

https://www.healthline.com/health/call-of-the-void

Read this
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 No.121118

>>121114
I find watching happy things makes me feel worse. I usually become envious of the people in the film or whatever, which leads me down a path of self hatred.
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 No.121121

>>121118
I can understand that too I guess. Maybe it's best to work on what problems are in your own life first rather than retreating into coping mechanisms. Maybe if you pick out a 'small' (relatively) problem in your life and start working on it, you'll be feeling better soon?
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 No.121129

>>121121
Thanks for the advice friend. My life isn't too much of a disaster (which I'm very thankful for), it's just very boring and lonely. I don't know where I'd even start with trying to feel better, I don't really know anyone who's happy tbh. I'm a bit of a mess mentally if you can't tell lol
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 No.121131

>>121129
You got friends? You got a partner? If not you can try and get some maybe. Easier said than done I know but it's not impossible. What kind of things are you into?
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 No.121143

>>121131
>You got friends? You got a partner?
I have friends but I'm not in a relationship and never have been. I mainly speak to my friends online and don't meet up too often so that's not great.
>If not you can try and get some maybe
I'm not very good at that tbh. The two friends I have I've know for years.
>What kind of things are you into?
I don't do an awful lot apart from go on the internet and watch TV. I know it's cliché but as I said I'm somewhat agoraphobic and don't live in a city so there's not much to do anyway.

It's okay anon, I'll work things out eventually. I'm just at a low right now and the prospect of things getting worse is fucking terrifying. Apart from that I'm good. Thanks for your replies and advice :)
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 No.121173

>>121118
just become happy lmao
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 No.121183

>>121143
start lifting
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 No.121210

>>121173
Good idea, I'll get onto it right away

>>121183
I'm lanky af and would feel out of place in a gym
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 No.121216

>>121066
Take meds.
NOW!
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 No.121222

>>121210
>I'm lanky af
yes exactly thats why you gotta lift sum weights
>would feel out of place in a gym
literally no one will give a fuck about you but you could start from your home with some dumbbells
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 No.121224

>>121216
>Take meds
I'm not OP but what meds specifically could solve his problem? I can't think of any. Seems like therapy or counselling would be a better route.

>>121222
Could I at least get started at home with store bought weights? I'm not sure if I can commit to a gym membership atm
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 No.121227

>>121224
yeah just make sure you get like at least more than 40kg
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 No.121239

>>121073
>buy a gun
Doesn't sound like the best advice in this scenario
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 No.121240

>>121118
just watch depressing films then. If it's to distract you, then why does it have to be gore?
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 No.121245

>>121240
>watch depressing films then
I do this as well, I especially like to use horror movies as a distraction
>why does it have to be gore?
Easy and quick to access and knowing it's real makes the emotions stronger
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 No.121250

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>>121245
Maybe avoid horror as well. Watch picrel and some other Mizoguchi films. They are all depressing as fuck, but they are great, and don't involve a whole lot of bodily harm being inflicted on people.
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 No.121252

>>121250
Thanks for the recommendation, I'll definitely check that film out. From the description if looks better than the slashers I usually waste my time with.
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 No.121254

>>121252
no problem fam, and I know other people itt have said this but you should get help of some sort. it really sounds awful to think about shit like this constantly, it would be good for you. You don't even necessarily need to take pills, you could try something like DBT if you have the means to.
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 No.121257

>>121066
Based and Heideggerpilled.

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